Have you ever wished that if you could turn back time and eliminate that moment from your ‘timeline’ how wonderful everything would be now?
I have about one particular situation constantly, daily, weekly, monthly for over a year now and I have tried and tried and tried to put things straight but everytime I have tried I have dug myself, unwittingly, a deeper hole. I have been misunderstood and I will have to be so careful in what I write here but quite simply – I can’t take it anymore.
How do you know it’s time to give up?
Should you give up?
Can I turn my back now and walk away or will I forever have that feeling ‘You didn’t do enough’? ‘You could have tried one more time’
On the few occasions over the past year when I have tried to repair the damage and have been swept aside I have thought to myself ‘Well you tried, hold your head high and move on.’ but then that niggly feeling starts maybe the other person misunderstood what you were trying to say, maybe they too are suffering. Maybe, maybe and I fill in the blanks with all possible solutions that would account for this person’s reaction or non reaction in this particular case.
Where am I going wrong?
My last attempt at patching up was two months ago. I received an email in reply saying busy, busy times we’ll be in touch and I have waited and waited and waited. I know lives are busy, I’m in no hurry but two months and not a word kind of screams out to me, I’m not going to get a reply EVER.
I’m tired now. I made a mistake but I can’t carry this ball of lead around my neck any longer. It saddens me that I didn’t manage to make it right but I have tried. I can’t keep on any more and I hate giving up but sometimes maybe you just have to look a situation in the eye and close the book, put it away and move on.
Sometimes, maybe, in life we simply have to give the ‘garden’ a good weed. Feng shui of life by removing the bits that make you sad and drag you down into a spiral of depression.
Maybe this is one of life’s lessons? Learning when to let go, learning to distinguish closed forever chapters with ones that need more love and attention.
Life is hard to interpret isn’t it sometimes? How will I know if I’m doing the right thing? Can I walk away now?
What would you do?