Now that the girls are two I have noticed myself sometimes thinking about work and a future career but What? How? Where? and Is it the best possible option for us? Questions that keep on cropping up day in day out.
But last night when the dishwasher had been packed after our dinner and we were sitting in front of the tv watching CSI I realised just how exhausted I was, I was ready for bed and it wasn’t 9.30pm.
Is this a twin thing or is SAHM (Stay At Home Mum) maybe more tiring than going to work?
I mean, our alarm ‘Muuuuuuummmyy!’ cries out anywhere between 6 – 6.30am the same time I’d have to rise to go out to work, I spend the entire day on the go, cleaning the house, playing with the girls, house paperwork and the list goes on, I won’t bore you with the details.
By the time 5pm comes, it’s teatime for the little ladies, followed by bath, dry, pyjamas, milk and bed round about 7.30pm. Then my attention turns to us, dinner needs sorting and our evening unfolds where sometimes I am so tired I can’t speak and just ‘um’ or nod a reply to Paul’s questions.
If I was to go back to work and have something left in my pocket after paying nursery fees x 2 to make the effort worthwhile, I would have to go up to London. This would mean putting the girls in a nursery by 7.30am so I could catch the last coach or a train and be in ‘the office’ by 9am.
A day’s work finishes at 5pm and probably goes over a little (can’t be seen running out the door as Big Ben chimes the hour!) so I wouldn’t be back to pick them up until gone 6.30pm at the earliest. Let’s face it, after a ‘day at work’ I would just want to enjoy a cup of tea, flick the channels and get dinner on, but no. I’d have to bath the girls, dry and dress them, feed them tea, get them to bed and spend some quality time with them if possible. (When?)
All household chores would be moved to the weekend – I’d be too tired to cope during the week and more often than not, not have time or the strength so even at the weekend I’d struggle to spend time with my girls.
Now Paul and I went through a right pallaver to get pregnant, and one day I will share our story, but every time I go through all of my options I keep coming up with a screaming ‘No!’ as I face the fact I would never see my girls and when I did I would be too exhausted to play with them.
So on that note, I am voting for SAHM BUT I have a few hours a day where I can sit on a PC, update my blog, my Facebook account, write emails, surf the net and listen in to Twitter via Tweetdeck so I could turn that time into something more fruitful as time goes on.
What’s your opinion? Do you crave the career or do you enjoy a SAHM status and have you found a way to earn some cash without upsetting the apple cart? I’d love to hear your story.