At times this broodiness was so strong that I would wait for my monthly cycle with both fingers crossed and be quite disappointed when it did arrive. I wouldn’t get rid of my maternity gear, books, breastfeeding cushion and untold other bits and bobs that go along with neo-mammas.
However I am cured! Hoorah!
After 5 days with 3 baby girls in the house, admittedly my two have swopped a bug back and forth between them and Gracey seems to be cutting her top teeth, I have gone totally off the idea and won’t be revisiting it again any time soon.
We have had 5 days of tantrums (My two, especially when I cuddle Gracey) tears (whenever Gracey goes for a toy) and goddamn hard work. I am totally bushed. My nights have been broken for 10 days now and my days have been full of screams and whines. I’m at the end of my tether.
My two are very suspicious of this other little person crawling around and pulling herself up all over the place and should she, God forbid, touch one of them the answer is a loud noise setting Gracey off in tears followed by all three of them moaning.
Yes, it is so much hard work that any idea of another sweet little baby to love and cuddle has gone totally out of the window to return no longer. My exhaustion has put right that silly notion.
As hard as it is I want you to know that I am loving this moment and wouldn’t give it up for the world. I’ll be very sad to see them leave but also pleased when peace and tranquillity are restored once again. I look forward to the days when the toddler jealousy is a thing of the past and these three little ladies can get down and enjoy each others company. In the meantime patience in abundance is needed, please send your extra over here :)