Trying to conceive over 40 diaries.
My period is on her way out today, I hope it’s the last I’ll see of her for 9 months, talking of which I signed up on the I’m for a July baby forum, you never know.
I have my brand new digital OPK (ovulation predictor kit) to play with this month. I didn’t like the previous type as I didn’t feel the lines were very clear (I’m sorry – I can’t remember which kit this was – April 2020).
I am always doubting myself and still wonder if maybe I didn’t ovulate last month?
I’m feeling absolutely shattered this morning. We had a great weekend with a very lazy Sunday but still, I don’t feel as if my batteries have been fully recharged.
I was feeling a bit down yesterday and this makes me miss my children even more. It’s very difficult being so far away and knowing that they’re living with the girl who broke up my marriage. I still have very bitter thoughts about her and I know they’re not doing me any good. I heard they’re all off to Mexico next week and that really breaks my heart as we were supposed to go in 1998 but had to cancel as my mother in law was taken ill. It was my dream holiday that never happened so I’m cheesed off that he’s taking her.
Anyway, I am lucky as I have an adorable partner who I wouldn’t swap for all the gold in the world.
Back to getting pregnant over 40 thoughts – I have always wondered about the importance of a simultaneous orgasm when trying to conceive. I read somewhere that the female orgasm helps the sperm travel faster on their journey to the egg.
I must promise myself to try and stay calm about the whole thing and try not to get too obsessed but I’m finding it increasingly difficult as it’s all I think about day and night.
I’m keeping my fingers crossed and saying a prayer to anyone who’ll listen.