here’s another shot of Regent’s Street

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I did a HPT this morning and got a BFN unfortuantely. I was really hoping that this might be my month but hey – onwards and upwards.
I have set myself a lot of goals this month the first being a diet. I weigh 65.6 K nad want to get down to 63 for Xmas. which will be hard. I shall start going to the gym again on Monday which has been swept under the carpet these last two months to concentrate on ttc.
I’m not to sure as to whether carry on with OPK’s as I think I was becoming obsessed with it all to the point where I didn’t even enjoy bd!!! Instead of enojoying the moment I was thinking about fertilising the egg. Now you’re not going to make a baby like that are yoU?
So for my 3rd month I’m going to leave it up to the Gods. I do strongly believe that there is a reason for everything that sometimes we don’t find out why until a lot later so i’m going to let it go and get on with my prep’s for Crimbo.
Both of my brothers will be joining us for Xmas day, one with wife and kids so I’ve got a lot to think of.
I peeked on the Crimbo board yesterday and got some brilliant ideas for pressies and DP and I have decided that if by Jan I’m not yet PG we’ll book a nice super holiday to make up for our lost hols to Cuba earlier in the year. I’m thinking South America…
I’m off to Italy tomorrow, can’t wait to see my two adn I have an appointment with an Italian solicitor about my divorce. I would like to see that brought to an end soon so fingeres crossed that 2007 is our year.
Back on Monday xx
Oh, I took some photos of REgent Street adn hamley’s Xmas lights last night so enjoy – especially if you’re out of town

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Damn,
I have this awful feeling AF is on her way, thanks to some brown spots in CM when wiping last loo visit. No point kidding myself any longer this month.
won’t even bother testing as complete waste of money.
Feeliong very down about the whole thing (as I knew I would) and when I am like this I feel as if the goal posts have been moved back a whole lot further.
I might be wrong. who knows?

12 DPO CD 28
BUT FF says I should be DPO 13!!! Now that changes things a bit doesn’t it.
How am I feeling?
Well, at mo’ I’m fine, no nausea, no sore boobs, no metallic taste but yesterday I did feel as if my uterus was an iron ball. It felt tight and I thought ahhh she’s on her way again. whilst ironing last night I did feel damp all of a sudden and expecting the worse rushed to the loo, but it wasn’t.
Boobs seem just a little bit bigger then usual adn belly is big but that’s the norm for me pre AF.
TMI alert – Usually the days preceeding AF I don’t pooh, it happens on CD 1 (lovely) well I just had a lovely big pooh girls (I did warn you TMI before hand)which is out of the norm for me adn makes me hopeful.
Shall I or Shan’t I test thread. 5 girls said yes, 1 said no 11 wished good luck and didn’t express a view.
I’ve told everyone I’m not testing till Friday then sound quite a VIP as I’m dashing to Stansted to fly to Italy to see my kids on a 11 am flight.
Have promised to post from the airport as know there are some PC’s there. Note to self – jot down password and username in diary
Last month 2 days before AF had a EWCM with a light brown tinge to it, day after CM was orangey pinky in colour. Today so far so good
Sneeky peek at book again this morning says – Transformation from a Blastocyst to an embryo shaped like a tear drop aaahhhh.

11DPO CD 27
Every twinge tweak or movement leads me to think AF is on her way. Of course my legs and back are killing me after our mega hike around Bewl Water on Sunday which doesn’t help as I don’t know if the back pain is from that or oncoming AF!!!
Dead tired last night, fell asleep on DP watching Jungle. Before I dropped off I laughed at David Gest snoring so loud then woke myself up a bit later snoring (I must have been lying on DP in a funny position of course!)
He’s very keyed in to me at mo’ asking for all symptoms, feelings and pointing out that my belly is big (wish he wouldn’t do that) Makes me worry because he’ll be so disappointed if AF arrives.
Have big positive moments when I think ‘Of course you’re pg’ and then others when I think it’ll never happen again. Grrrr!
Sneekily read in my book that on DPO 11, egg is completely implanted and has divided into 2 cavities, one will become embryo the other his digestive track. There is already a spinal cord, the start of an umbilical cord and placenta. Amazing. fingers crossed xx
Wow K is already 9 weeks – amazing how time flies. Can’t wait to see the photos later hun!