I can never remember what day I am in my cycle – just a minute….ah yes
CD 24 10DPO
Crikey, I’m getting there. Oh, all of my symptoms disappeared this morning, I woke to go to the loo at 5.21 (looked at clock) got all excited as this is earlier than usual so couldn’t get back to sleep.gggrrr
Anyway had time for a piece of taost as was so early so no nausea this morning. CM is pretty normal really, bobbs fine adn well I’m always tired.
One things for sure, I haven’t got anything completed at work this week, I have trawled from site to site looking for something – A SIGN!!!!
Still ahven’t found it though. I sent off for a prediction – just for the hell of it. No harm done is there? a few girls were told correctly others weren’t.
DP is out drinking tonight so I sahll be wrapping some bits up in secret from him.
On my other site patsey on the +35 started to miscarry today, she’s very early on but it’s gutting all the same after all she’s been through.
Have decided to test on Friday as I ahve the work Christmas party that evening and at least will know one way or the other (hopefully 84% I think)
Am loving my new book In the Womb – hte photos are amazing
here’s one of conception not from that book though


CD 23 9DPO
Mondays are always the hardest and this one is no exception. We unfortuantely got the miserable ol git this morning as a coach driver and it took him 2 hours to get to the embankment. I wanted to throttle him but didn’t! I am so tired and keep on rubbing my eyes and taking my glasses off adn so far I haven’tr done anything for work just forum forum forum.
have been Seriously Symptom Spotting all weekend adn this is what I’ve got so far (I know I said I wouldn’t do it this month but I cajn’t help it, it happens unconciously)
1. Fuzzy feeling
2. creamy CM
3. vivid dreams
1. very ratty
2. bloated stomach
3. itchy eyes
4. creamy CM
5. Had to get up to the loo twice during the night
6. very thirsty all the time
1. Odd tweak or twinge in uterus
2. creamy CM
3. Hot flushes
4. Tender boobs
all three days dog tired adn want to sleep all the time adn all three days quite ratty.
My hopes and DP’s are very high now which is a shame as we’ll be quite upset if it doesn’t happen, well I willbe anyway. As a precaution I didn’t drink a lot over the weekend, Fri – 1 G+T plus a couple of glasses of wine, Sat, a glass of wine Sun, a glass of wine.
I think I may test Friday morning as I have my Christmas party. AF not due to Sunday but hopefully if I am it would show up. We’ll see.
I got our tree up over the weekend and am very pleased with it also I have bought 2 books which are fantastic
Magical Beginnings, Enchanted Lives by Dr Deepak Chopra
adn In the Womb by Peter Tallack with some excellent photography in the womb. Amazing stuff
Speak tomorrow, xx

Oh there are some fun things to do on the T4AB board today. Just so you all know I am Happy Spirit fingers (Elf name)
Secret Santa has bought me Santa’s Boxers ie pants)
and this is the outcome for my Christmas Naughty or nice list…
You are on the The Nice List

After checking the North Pole database we found you had :

1,672 nice entries
241 naughty entries

Oh don’t you just love christmas?
As for the SS, yes I am although trying very hard not to, I saw on heppwalker’s diary that she ‘felt’ implantation and may try to contact her to see what she felt as I am intrigued. So in for a penny in for a pound, I’ve now 8/9 days to go.
I’m not going to evn think about it
OMG and have you seen how many BFP’s have been announced this past week???? amazing ont the +35 board I’m on 2 women yesterday. Brilliant news – just wish it was me :-(
MY TURN WILL COME – -mantra for December
Have added an interesting photo found on the net the latest fashion girls for Crimbo. Dresses made out of used condoms – not that us lot have many of them lying around LOL


No gym today, I decided to do some Christmas shopping and well maybe that was worst as Oxford Street is jam packed.
CD 18 today, have nothing to tell apart from the fact I don’t feel very hopeful. If I got my smiley on Sat morning and we ‘did it’ 3 times on sat will that have been enough. previous to Sat it was thurs but maybe they wouldn’t have lasted long enough. What a turmoil.
I promised myslef I wouldn’t think about it and look a tme! At least I don’t take my temps as that would truley send me over the edge of reason.
I should expect AF on the 17th this month, today is the 6th that’s 11 days to go. My god it’s goign to be a long 11 days. At least if she does show up I can celebrate Xmas with a glass or two but I would prefer not to tbh
sigh sigh

CD 17
Strange day today. Think I caused a bit of a flurry on the board with my comments on Jordan. Will I ever learn to keep them to myself?
And I have just had a look at Rachie-Mal’s heartbreaking ‘memory of alex’ web site where I have lit a candle.
On reading stories like this it does bring back my own loss so vividly and I wish I hadn’t lost her so much.
Work is incredibly boring at the moment and I am struggling to do stuff. There’s plenty if I want it’s just I can’t be bothered.
Cd 17 as it says above. I’m trying not to think about it. Of course I want it just as much as the other months but hey I have to be patient. Maybe that’s what bugged me more about the BFP congrats to Katie Price. I mean some people get all the luck don’t they?
Have been to the gym today again and managed to do level 6 on the cross trainer for 20 mins and level 9 on the bike for 10 mins a total of 300 calories burned. :-)