The waiting game: After the interview

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A couple of weeks ago I went for an interview.

If I had £1 for every time I have refreshed my inbox since I’d be rich.

“We’ll get back to you at the end of next week.’

‘A whole week?’ I thought to myself. ‘Wonderful.’ I replied to my interviewer as I smiled at her, embracing myself for a very long wait.

I’m going to have to keep myself very busy next week. I told myself, happy I had a plan of attack to break up the waiting game.

 

It is the classical dream job, the one I could throw myself at 100%. The job I am ready for.

It hadn’t been a decision taken lightly to put myself forward. I last worked, like ‘proper’ work, in 2007 and was made redundant when I was only 10 weeks pregnant with the twins. To go back to work full time or part time would mean I’d have to organise childcare, dogcare, housework, shopping and all manner of daily routines I take for granted. Right now I can nip in and out of the house as and when I please. I can move work commitments around to fit in with our life.

Do I really want to go back to work and give up this freedom?

Yes.

 

There was the CV issue. I haven’t written a CV in 8 years, have they changed? I liaised with some friends, I wrote one up and sent it off.

A reply.

They were interested and asked me to complete some tasks for them.

My first reaction was horror! Tasks? Where do I start? Can I even do this?

I put the tasks to one side ignoring them as hard as I could and made up my mind it would be the end of the road for me but then one late afternoon, I picked up the printed document, read it properly and started to think. I got swept away, the more I thought the more ideas kept coming. I had pieces of paper all over the place, I had notes in three different books, bookmarked pages on the internet and I was a whirl of information, a smiling whirl of information.

I liked this.

One week later, I sent off my completed tasks, happy with my work. Well sort of, there were areas that could have done with extra input but time didn’t allow me. I should have started earlier rather than panicking!

 

An email.

The offer of an interview.

‘Yes, yes, I would love to, thank you.’

Oh my, was I too gushing? Should I have gone back with a curt, thank you? Would that have been more professional?

Just be yourself. A friend kindly advised.

An interview. What shall I wear? Of course my wardrobe was offering up NOTHING suitable. I would have to shop.

Online searching, skirt – not too short, not too frumpy. Blue? Nice, I like blue. I ordered it in my size, knee length.

It arrived along with the blouse, shoes and tights to go with it but horror of horrors, it’s a MINI skirt. It didn’t look like that in the catalogue NEXT!

I took it all back and rummaged around in the wardrobe. I found something suitable. I relaxed.

Actually, that’s a lie. I didn’t relax. I started to fret. I didn’t sleep well on the run up, dreaming all sorts of tragedies. I spent an entire night in and out of a dream where I had lost my new phone! It was exhausting.

 

I arrived early and spent an hour with my interviewer. That’s got to be good right?

I had researched top questions asked in interviews and husband would test me whilst we did the dishes, ‘So why do you want this job?’ ‘Where do you see yourself in 3/5 years time Marianne?’

‘We have another couple of people to interview.’ 

“We’ll get back to you at the end of next week.’ 

I didn’t want to go. I wanted to find my place at a desk and start to work but I couldn’t.

I left the building praying that I would soon be back.

I sent a thank you note; short, sweet and thanking. I could have written tons more but I held myself back.

Was that a good decision? Maybe they think I’m begging? Maybe I look a bit needy now. Is that professional?

 

It’s the end of the week, Friday afternoon. Will I hear today?

It’s after office hours, no email.

I’m going to clear out the small bedroom upstairs, Tommy is coming over next week with the family. If I don’t get the job at least I can enjoy the family being here.

If I don’t get the job, I could start writing that book.

If I don’t get the job I could decorate our bedroom, clear out the cupboard under the stairs….

 

It’s midweek of the following week.

An email.

‘Sorry this is taking so long, we have more interviews this week, we’ll be in touch soon.’

A sigh of relief – it’s not a NO.

A panic – it’s not a yes.

I write a reply, I rewrite a reply. I cross bits out and add bits in. Will they like it? Will I look needy, desperate? I am desperate! I desperately want this job, it’s mine. I reread my email, reword some bits and click send holding my breath.

Then I panic about it. Shouldn’t have sent it. Should have sent it.

Oh well, too late to change now.

More people to interview. Younger people, knowledgeable, savvy people.

Oh this waiting game is stretching my nerves to breaking point.

Tommy and his family arrive, I am distracted. We are busy catching up, going out and eating together, there is lots of eating. I start to cook with an intense passion. My son and his girlfriend will think I am am a supercook!

 

It’s Monday.

A phone call … it’s them!!!

They are offering me a job. I accept.

I’m going back to work.

I have nothing to wear. I must go and shop.

 

Note to the reader: The above is all true and soon I will be able to say much more; who I am working for and what it all entails but for now I am bound to keep quiet. One way I kept myself busy on a particularly LONG Friday was composing this post. I am very excited about the next chapter in my life and what it will bring. Life in Mari’s World will take on a new shape, I hope you’ll join me on the next chapter too and I hope you enjoyed this creative writing which I have been missing for so long.

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30 Comments

  1. October 6, 2015 / 5:24 PM

    Congrats, such great news. I was practically holding my breath towards the end, loved reading your post and can’t wait to hear more :-)

    • October 7, 2015 / 9:52 AM

      Ha ha! Pleased to hear it Emily, I’ve been holding my breath for a fortnight :)

      Thanks for your kind words.

  2. October 6, 2015 / 8:23 PM

    How exciting, congratulations :) Looking forward to hearing more about it!

    • October 7, 2015 / 9:52 AM

      Thanks Jennifer, it’s all very exciting and I can’t wait to tel you more :)

    • October 7, 2015 / 9:53 AM

      Thank you lovely, I’m so pleased you like the style, it was fun trying something new :)

  3. October 7, 2015 / 9:39 AM

    I am smiling so widely reading this – for you for getting the job, and because I know so well how you felt…must have been so, so tough. Can’t wait to see you, and Mari’s World take shape for this new chapter. Massive congrats; but no surprise they picked you. You are fantastic, and incredibly creative and they knew :-D

    • October 7, 2015 / 9:56 AM

      Awww, you lovely lady you. Thank you so much for your support and kind words, it means a lot to me. I can’t wait to start now!

  4. October 7, 2015 / 10:29 AM

    I am so so so excited for you. To whomever has chosen you to be their perfect employee, I can only say that they should go and get a lottery ticket because they are riding a wave of luck at the moment. You will only be an asset to them. GOOD LUCK!!

    • October 7, 2015 / 3:09 PM

      You sweetheart DG and thank you very much indeed. I still have Monday’s and Friday’s free for coffee ;)

  5. October 7, 2015 / 10:47 AM

    So excited and intrigued! Huge congratulations and I can’t wait to hear more. Have sensed you have been ready for a new challenge recently – all I can say is lucky employers!

    • October 7, 2015 / 3:10 PM

      Yes, I need this new direction Penny, you are right, I’ve been hankering after something for a while and this is PERFECT. Cannot wait to tell you more.

  6. October 7, 2015 / 11:31 AM

    Wow wow wow! That is fantastic news! Well done you!

    I am usually the other side of an interview as the interviewer and you clearly came across as the lovely, creative and naturally enthusiatic person we all know you to be x

    • October 7, 2015 / 3:12 PM

      Oh bless you Donna for saying such lovely things. I can’t wait to get started now. Brand new chapter – bring it on!

    • October 7, 2015 / 3:12 PM

      Ha ha! Not just me then. I am rubbish at waiting and my mind just wanders too far at times.

  7. October 7, 2015 / 1:21 PM

    SUCH a rollercoaster! I am so happy for you! xx

    • October 7, 2015 / 3:13 PM

      Thank you lovely, it has been a rollercoaster but what a fabulous ending. Can’t wait to share more with you and best of luck to you. I can’t wait to hear YOUR news xxx

  8. October 7, 2015 / 6:41 PM

    It’s always the waiting that’s the hardest bit – and WELL DONE YOU!
    Such good news – I look forward to seeing where it takes you next x

    • October 17, 2015 / 4:31 PM

      Thanks Annie, it’s been an intense week but an incredibly interesting one, can’t wait for next week now :)

  9. October 7, 2015 / 7:42 PM

    What a wait! So delighted to hear your news. Exciting times ahead – I will enjoy following this new road with you xx

    • October 17, 2015 / 4:37 PM

      Thanks Trish, I have a feeling it’s going to be very exciting :)

  10. October 8, 2015 / 9:53 AM

    Exciting times ahead! Congratulations Mari on your new job – so well deserved and they will be lucky to have you. I enjoyed your mini skirt panic!! haha You have a great excuse to go ‘work wardrobe’ shopping now!! Best of luck xxx

    • October 17, 2015 / 4:38 PM

      I am no longer of mini skirt material my love. Those days are behind me especially for an interview!

  11. Katy Hill
    October 8, 2015 / 8:29 PM

    Best news EVER! Feel the fear baby! You’re one of the loveliest creatures I’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting so whoever they are, they made the right choice! I’d want you on MY team! I returned to work after a LONG break with the kids in February and I’m loving it! Yes, there are the days I feel like a swan – all serene on the surface and paddling like crazy to keep my world spinning – childcare etc – but I’m so pleased I made the leap. You’ll be AMAZING! Can’t wait to hear more xx

    • October 17, 2015 / 4:40 PM

      Awww thank you lovely. YOU are an inspiration to so many of us and I’m so pleased to see your latest venture working out so well, new feathers in your cap and material to keep your brain ticking over nicely. Embrace and enjoy, that’s my new motto xx

  12. October 19, 2015 / 12:03 AM

    Congrats Mari, I love that your response was to shop – and I totally get that. Good luck – but I’m sure you don’t need it X

    • October 21, 2015 / 6:46 PM

      Thanks Stephanie. I’m in week 2 now and totally loving it. I feel as if I am in exactly the right place.

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